I was fortunate to meet some amazing people through The San Francisco Marathon Ambassador program. We all had two things in common–we love to run and we love San Francisco. Bonnie is someone who I admire–she pushes through tough times and has a resilient and giving heart. You can find Bonnie blogging at Zombie Running Princess, where she most recently shared her experience about volunteering at a local 5k by helping bring in the back of the pack runners safely. I’m honored to share her story with all of you.
Bonnie: I was never really that active.When I was in my 20’s I was super busy trying to finish my degree when my dad fell ill and spent almost a year in and out of hospitals and nursing homes battling multiple illnesses, a lot of which obesity played a party of. During that year, I really felt like the world fell apart around me. We had been getting meals when we could, and I literally became my last priority. I am the only child so I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. If I took time for me, I felt guilt and shame. At this time I really did not have good self esteem to begin with so this all lead to a slippery slope. I ate a lot. I was very self-destructive because I did not think I deserved success. I finally got myself up to 245 pounds and I was miserable. The pattern of self- destruction and self-deprecation got 100 times worse.
I did not know where to turn. And I thought I would be seen as a weak person by asking for help.
I worked with a couple trainers who helped me get the weight off. One trainer though in particular I owe so much to. Zac helped me face my self-destructive habits head on. I know there are some days I probably drove him crazy because I did not trust myself, and I did not think I deserved success. But once he helped me realize that once I started trusting myself, and knowing I deserved success, the last of the weight came off and I became very much a happier more self-confident women. He also helped me hatch my love for running. He helped me build the tool box so I could take the ball and run with it.
Bonnie: Its all about variety. 3 days a week I am found on the road getting my running time in. The days I am not running (2-3) I am in the gym and I am always shaking up my routine. I go from yoga, to riding our interactive spinning machines, to body weight work. I always seem to be looking for ways to challenge myself or shake up my routine. I am always scouting magazines, or pintrest for a new challenge.
My workout time is an appointment with myself. I used to think making that time for myself was selfish, but now I realize that making that time is ideal for my physical, mental and spiritual health. I shut off my phone, and I am not reachable for that hour or so. That is my time.
Bonnie: I love running which is funny because before my journey I HATED running. Running just gives me that time just to go out and be me. I can get away from the craziness of the world, think out stuff, unplug and just go. When you are dealing with a family with medical issues the running time is truly the time for me. Portland has some amazing running areas and allows me to change up my routine and challenge myself. No one run is ever the same.
Bonnie: I am from the Pacific NW so anything that has to do with Salmon is my go to healthy meal. Salmon is such a simple, easy to cook fish and you can put almost anything with it. Salmon burgers on flat bread is probably the number one thing on my list of Salmon dishes. It cooks quick and is always amazing.
Bonnie: This is a weird question, because my journey really started when I opened myself up and asked for help. I was honest with people around me that I needed a life line. I found that I have a great group of friends and mentors that have been there for me through the ups and downs and reminded me that if I could set my mind to it, I could achieve it. Its these friends who have been there for me no matter what that have inspired me every day.
Bonnie: One of the best pieces of advice I ever learned from my former trainer is that there will be days things seem impossible, that the mountain seems like it is competently impossible to climb. Instead of focusing on the mountain focus on the step that is in front of you, focus on making that step your best step and keep going. For me, I hold on to the idea of making each moment, each step, each choice the best I can in that moment.
Thank you for sharing your story, Bonnie!